the write practice

The writer's block is really frustrating. I thought about how words used to just come to me like a flowing river. Now I can't get a decent sentence without rewriting it ten times before I stop writing altogether. What is my problem? I know I want this and i know that now is the perfect time to do it. But why do i keep on making excuses for myself. Or procrastinate till 'I am ready' or for the perfect story. I am ready. I have always been ready. My story will never be perfect. But at least if I write it, there will be a story.
While making my Karipap, I did some soul-searching and I figured out what was stopping me from writing. It's the distractions. The social media. I know I make silly videos on Instagram. I am fully aware that those videos are means to distract myself from writing. I was  making excuses for myself. I thought if I watched the videos of me talking to myself, I can see myself like an outsider. But my smartphone is only making me dumber. John says he decided to make his smartphone a dumbphone, where it only makes calls and sends texts. I should do that too. I am gonna do that too. I know I want this and I know I can do it. And I know what's stopping me. It's not the house chores or the taking care of kids. It's me. It's my attitude. So what if my writing sucks. I can improve. I can practice. I will just keep on reading, making journals and writing and blogging. Just to practice. I need the practice. So wish me luck. Thanks Sue from the write practice. You are right. Just write it. One word after another. It will come eventually. I believe it will.